It’s been an interesting year to say the least.
In January, I injured my shoulder quite significantly. I have since then dealt with a lot of pain in it which has adversely affected my job, weight lifting, and even recreational life.
This spring was an awful one for all farmers. With heavy rains through most of May, we we’re unable to get in the fields to plant until late May and had to push ourselves very hard to get our crops in.
We must have gotten all our rain in the summer in May because in June it stopped raining and we didn’t see another drop until August. This was devastating to our young crops and put a tremendous amount of stress on all farmers in our area.
At the end of June, my dad broke his leg and was in a boot for 11 weeks. This very suddenly thrust the responsibility of the farm on my sister and myself. We each began working a ridiculous amount of hours without a day off in sight. In addition to that, we both work another job besides farming. Exhausted doesn’t begin to describe the situation.
I have struggled deeply with certain very important relationships in my life. Fighting for the good of the relationships has been emotionally draining.
The circumstances of this year have not been well. And the year is far from over. With what it feels like has been one hit after another, I’ve prepared myself for anything to happen in the remaining months.
But despite it all, I have had a peace that surpasses my understanding. I have been discouraged at moments, but the feeling is fleeting. I have thought once or twice that I can’t keep doing this, but I have never lost the ability to persist through the hardship. I have wondered why all this has happened, but have managed learn and grow through each seemingly pointless problem.
The only thing I can contribute my peace to is the fact that though it is not well with my circumstances, it is well with my soul.
I have learned so much about my strength and the importance of rehab and prehab from my shoulder.
In the mad two weeks we managed to get all of our crops in, I learned how much endurance, drive and teamwork play a role in farming.
Thanks to the knowledge from our record setting planting season, I’ve had faith in God and myself to get our farm through both the drought and the time dad was off work. I learned so much in that season of life that I will forever be grateful for.
And because of the struggle and overcoming that struggle in my relationships, I’ve grown individually and have stronger bonds with the others in the relationship.
I know for a fact that because my soul was well, I have handled the situations this year brought on well. I have had much better years that I handled much more poorly because my relationship with the Healer of my soul was poor. The foundation of my soul with not the Cornerstone that is Christ so even the littlest rain life sent me broke down my soul.
You may be reading this and going through something far worse than I have this year. I know myself that life has much harder things in store for me in the future. But this year taught me to take heart. If my soul is on solid ground, I can withstand whatever storms life will send my way. You can too.
I hope despite your circumstances, your soul is well.
The Lord is my Shepard; I shall not want. He causes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul; He leads me in paths of righteousness for His name’s sake. Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil; for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; my cup runs over. Surly goodness and mercy Sha follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwel in the house of the Lord forever.