Light in the Darkness

O Lord, how long will you forget me? Forever? How long will you look the other way? How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart every day? How long will my enemy have the upper hand? Turn and answer me, O Lord my God! Restore the sparkle in… Continue reading Light in the Darkness

Starving for Control

I spent an extended period of my life working to overcome my eating disorders. I went to great lengths to practice self love and self care and implement certain disciplines in order to overcome anorexia, bulimia, and orthorexia. Yet nothing truly seemed to work. I found myself shifting from one form of eating disorder to… Continue reading Starving for Control

All Things Work for Good: 2019 closing and 2020 beginning

Cuddled up on the couch mulling over the past year whilst sipping on sleepy time tea, I am left with a smile on my face. This was not the year I expected. Rather, it was much better than I ever imagined. The verse that stands out to me that most accurately sums up the past… Continue reading All Things Work for Good: 2019 closing and 2020 beginning

War of the Mind, Battle of the Plate

“You’re gorgeous! Just stop.” It never mattered how many times I heard these words or similar while battling a disordered relationship with food and my body; they didn’t help. Regardless of how desperately I wanted to have the words penetrate my heart or how hard I tried to just stop restricting or binging and purging… Continue reading War of the Mind, Battle of the Plate

The Skinny on Abs: why “getting abs” shouldn’t be your new year’s resolution

Welcome to that weird week between Christmas and New Years when you’re filled with cheese, confusion, and booze! Most of us are feeling fuller than normal due to your grandma’s delicious chocolate pie, your uncle’s family famous cheesey potatoes, and of course, sugar cookies piled high with frosting. The consumption of these wonderful goodies we… Continue reading The Skinny on Abs: why “getting abs” shouldn’t be your new year’s resolution

Surviving the Holidays: A quick guide on what to say and what not to say about food.

“That’s all just sugar and carbs.” This statement made to me recently would have completely devastated the girl I used to be. But it simply just angered the woman that I am now. It also reminded me as we are going into the holidays that many people have still not quite evolved in their own… Continue reading Surviving the Holidays: A quick guide on what to say and what not to say about food.

It is not well with my circumstances, but it is well with my soul.

It’s been an interesting year to say the least. In January, I injured my shoulder quite significantly. I have since then dealt with a lot of pain in it which has adversely affected my job, weight lifting, and even recreational life. This spring was an awful one for all farmers. With heavy rains through most… Continue reading It is not well with my circumstances, but it is well with my soul.

Band-Aids and Broken Bones

Do you believe in divine intervention? I do. Particularly after attempting to make an Instagram post last night. I know your thinking now, “girl! Jesus don’t care about your ‘gram!” But you see, I made a commitment to myself and to Him that I would only post things that added value to other’s lives. Though… Continue reading Band-Aids and Broken Bones

Bless Him; Change Me

I’m dating a human being. A wonderful human, but still, a human. He can frustrate me beyond measure. When he comes home late for dinner or doesn’t pick up on my not so sublet hints that I want him to take me out for ice cream, I begin to think, maybe not in so many… Continue reading Bless Him; Change Me

Guilt, Shame, and Divorce

Three years ago today, with knots in my stomach, I drove myself to the courthouse. I tried to keep my hands from shaking as I worked my way up to the courtroom I was assigned. My lawyer in the hallway coached me on what was about to happen and I flashed as confident of as… Continue reading Guilt, Shame, and Divorce